So it was 2012!!!!!!! :-o
All set for a lifetime commitment. Seriously thinking that I would be married in a couple of months gives me Goosebumps. I ask myself – Am I ready for this ?? Will my life change completely ? Ok, accepted it changes –good or bad? :o. I will be playing another extra role in my life, will be someone’s wife. God!! Really scaryyyyyyy.
Suddenly so many thoughts start floating ---
1.I will no longer be living/coming to the house where I used to stay even though I m in the same city..how odd is that ?? :/
2.Only a couple of months where I can claim to be single and have no dependents.
3.I always remember attending others marriage and feeling very happy for so many reasons, but now its my own wedding and I am unable to believe it. It feels so odd to be in the shoes of the bride.
4.Suddenly everybody is interested in what I eat, wear, look and all the small minor things which were not there in the picture before.
5.I feel that now it can be postponed as much as possible.
6.No longer ticking the box which says “Single” in any of the forms where marital status is asked.
So many many other concerns day in and out. You spend so much in the 2 days which you would have probably spent in your whole lifetime. I still feel –is so much of spending worth it??
Mine is a love cum arranged marriage where I know the guy very well , but still I feel so scared to get married. I really appreciate other gals where in they learn to trust a guy in couple of meetings and agree to stay together for a lifetime. I wouldn’t have imagined myself doing something like that (not that there is anything wrong with either, just my own thoughts here, not meant to be taken personally)
Well if u ask me if I m excited,-I say YES, but then there is so much of uncertainty to things around and it gives me jitters. I’ll feel at peace only my marriage is over (or is it the reverse I wonder!!!)(this also applies to my parents and my guy as well).I still can’t believe I am going to get married and everything is fixed so soon!!! :/ :O. Everybody probably undergoes these feelings during this time (though not sure). Overall a weird feeling which comes with a package which u can’t separate it from. But then getting married is just not like another thing in your life. It’s a different episode and experience altogether.
I also have a strange feeling that I should be doing whatever I wanted in life before I get married( as though i m going to die, or are these both synonyms when it comes to marriage?? :P). Sometimes there will no explanation to feelings (after all it is feelings).
Am I looking forward for the “D-day”. Well I leave it to each one’s own interpretation :)
